I’ve been thinking a lot about how social media is, by definition, social.Â I mean, obviously.Â But in some ways the implications of that have not been something I’ve really come to grips with.Â I get upset when I’m misunderstood on the internet, which, I mean, it’s the internet, that’s what happens here.
Obviously not the only thing that happens here, but to expect that I should be able to expound my ideas with such perfect clarity that no one will ever mistake my meaning is frankly absurd.Â Yes, I have thought I should be able to do that.Â And no, I’m not a perfectionist; I never do anything perfectly.
One of my main aims with this blog is to share ideas that are beyond the 101-type posts.Â There are plenty of people doing that already, with far greater patience and clarity than me.Â I have enormous respect for that work and the people doing it, but it’s not the work I’m interested in doing here.Â I want to get past the normal structures of thinking around this stuff to something new.Â When I talk about fat sexuality, I want to get at more than the same tired discourses of ‘body image’.Â I’m not interested in claiming that every body is beautiful, but looking at why beauty has come to stand in for worth, at what the idea of beauty does.Â I think fat acceptance is far more radical and fundamental than the vague, insipid blathering about ‘self esteem’ that goes on in ladymags and self-help books.Â To me, fat acceptance is about the management of bodies and the body politic.Â It’s about the production and regulation of identities and subject positions.Â It’s about class and gender and race and citizenship and labour and capitalism and power.
Actually, what I’m talking about is probably more fat studies than fat acceptance.Â While the two are by no means separate, there is a difference, and it’s that difference which draws me to academia despite the angst it sometimes (often!) induces.Â Trying to push past the normal structures of thinking is always going to be a difficult thing, but I think it’s necessary.Â More than that, I find it thrilling.Â New ways of thinking are exciting, dammit.
Ok, now I really have to finish up that paper I’m presenting tomorrow.Â (Yeah, it’s mostly angst at the moment).